motivated

the new job is exciting and extremely challenging. for the last one week i've been up to my neck with proposals, press releases, and other miscellenous stuffs. i've had stuffs to do every night and neglecting housekeeping.

last night i got home at 10, took a shower and was going to settle down on my laptop when i realised that Gab, my new flatmate, had thrown his finished cup noodle into the bin in the living area which lining has leaked into the bin itself. then i walked into the kitchen and saw seasoning powder strewn all over the kitchen top and the table cloth and scourer soiled and left in the sink. so i cleaned it up, took out the trash and decided to sweep the floor and rinse the bathroom floor. at 11, i was ironing my blouse for work when i realised how luxurious having mum around has been and quietly missing her.

i sometimes feel i've never enjoyed work as much as i do now. underneath i'm frightened that i'll screw up and the client will hate me and decide on other agencies. i love being in china and having the expanse of the city all within my reach. my job keeps me sane and my lunch buddy is a wonderful girl with animated actions. and i know all these gets better when joa is back.

i rang him while on the cab back to the office. it felt distant and i wondered how it must be hard on him not to have someone chat about his day. his sms last night was just adorable, sweet and heart-wrenching. i must say i only miss him towards the end of the day when packing up for home feels boring. i told him i will go to shanghai next wed for a workshop and i'm glad he responded with disappointment :) that would mean we'd only have a day together till the weekend.

tilly has been a wonderful company. i'm wondering if i'm imposing on her too much. we have a long weekend this week and we're planning to spend an interesting day on fri. maybe i'll go shop for a bicycle and take photos of the plum blossoms.