the worst nightmare

i mentioned in the last entry about how i was catching on the tragedy of the Singaporean victim at the Mumbai shootout. watching all the footage and reading all the news about lo's husband and family really reminded me on the pain of losing a loved one. it's almost impossible to imagine facing the loss of either/ both of my parents or joa. just thinking about it makes me feel like dying myself.

last week, W talked about how she'd attended a wake. her co-worker's dad had died of cancer and he was only 55. the touching eulogies reminded her of how much time she'd left with her own dad. hearing her recounting the experience almost made me cry. my dad is 57 this year and the mean age of men in singapore is about 65-70. so that leaves me with less than 10 more years with him. i'd always dreamt and talked about going away to taiwan again to live and work. but after that night, i made up my mind. we're staying put and i'm determined to spend as much time as i can with my parents.

also, i ought to learn to help around the house a little instead of leaving it all to my mum. my room is dust-free (even under the bed!) and so neat. why can't i just make things easier for her by just helping out in little ways like washing my own mug instead of leaving it at the table?! and why can't i just get down to downloading some nice tunes into her new shuffle for her?! it's been almost 3 weeks since she asked me to!

i'm a bad, bad daughter.

with so many unfortunate events going around, it dawned on me how birthday parties, weddings, and get-togethers are such wonderful occasions. i used to hate going to such events where you just had to posed 'happy', but really, they're so much a better cause for cheer than having someone sick or dying. i remember how happy every guests (well, most) were at the wedding. their smiles, their congratulations. i think what really made it so unforgettable was seeing how everyone was in such high spirits, and nevermind that some were obviously drunk.

yeah, i realised how happy we all shd be when invited to a party. esp now that christmas is just around the corner, go gather some cousins, families and close friends and have a merry time! speaking of which, we girls are rounding up a christmas buffet dinner at parkroyal on beach road on the 20th. everyone has to bring a date and it'll be a great evening just chatting over free flow food and a chocolate fountain! can't wait!