updates

jas commented that S diary is boring in comparison with the old wordpress one. i can't agree more. it's strange how when life is going slightly better for one that you'd just run out of inspiration to write. like there's no heartache, no lonely nights pining for anyone, and also the fact that i'm back in sg and everything around me worth writing about (food reviews, shopping, movies, books, etc) has been written about by my compatriots that i just cannot find a niche anymore. so yes, so there.

just some updates: we're officially married for 12 days and we still talk about how it's so bizzarre that we are actually arre married. and to one another! i wonder if all other newly married couples feel the same? strange, weird, surreal, constantly-have-to-remind-oneself of reality. we're still trying to accomodate both our lifestyles and habits into my room that's good for one. the wardrobe is too small and there's only one desk so either one of us have to sit on the bed to use the laptop at any time. also trying to integrate into each others' families, which has been quite smooth. it's just that joa has to be a bit more candid around my family who are as usual, too welcoming that they make him feel bad.

he said this morning that we need to make this marriage a bit more 'normal' before we can feel like we are married. when i asked him to explain, he said we both need jobs and we need our own place. although i can't agree more, but i love living under the same roof as my parents. i love sitting around and gossiping with my bro and mum and talking about car prices with dad. most of all, i love having joa at the family mealtimes and see him trying to make conversations. it's when i feel most blessed, and at the peak of my happiness. to me, those moments make it more than enough.

on hindsight, joa and i have taken things a bit too quickly. but i realised that's how things in my life go usually. sometimes it's just that i'm the impulsive sort, but most of the times, circumstances just lead things towards that way. i still think about china a lot - the good the bad, the ugly the beautiful. how i can't wait to go back and have xiabu xiabu with mandy again and how i must go back to drag my ex-landlady to prison for cheating us of our deposit.

Little J is 16 weeks old and at yesterday's measurement, was 11.2cm while in a curled up and odd position. dr cheng got a bit frustrated becos baby was lying bottom up and he could not measure him properly. joa shrieked when he saw some startling movements on the screen and there was that moment there. but otherwise, dr cheng said both our intuition that Little J was gonna be a gal is wrong. i actually felt she was he but i didnt want to seem like i'd favour a boy more becos frankly, i dun quite mind.

joa was really happy at the news and so's everyone even though mum was preferring a gal becos my cousins who lives just down the road has four boys and everyone was hoping i'd have a gal for novelty's sake. now that we're expecting a fifth boy, everyone's picturing a monkey house.

i miss beijing. i miss my walk to work in the mornings and my evening walks home. i love how there's always something to look forward to. something new to do, to see, and to explore. even tho i sometimes hated being there, but there's still a kind of charm to it. i wish i cd be there in winter again. i think it was even different for joa and i there.